Lately I've been thinking that I just want us to move in together somewhere.

I'm so impatient.

It's been almost three years since my ACL recon. They say that it takes two years before you start to feel normal. But the secret is that when you have to deal with a problem for more than two years, it becomes normal. You become habituated to the chronic pain and increased limitations and weakness of your body. Suddenly, you find yourself saying, "Oh, it's just my knee again," like a broken record. And it's not just a matter of pain, the experience morphs into a certain mindset and mental reflex. Your body develops this subconscious monster single-mindedly trying to avoid re-injury. It's like having an excuse to be a coward that no one, not even your own mind, can argue with. Who can fault you for being scared to push your limits if it means risking another surgery.

And it breaks my heart sometimes. I feel like I used to be so much braver. I miss being reckless and getting away with stupid stunts by the skin of my teeth. But the line separating challenge from risk is so much closer to my eyes now.

Completed Recipes List

[x] Parmesan chicken
[x] Baked Ziti
[x] Spinach Gnocchi
[x] Swedish Meatballs
[x] Cheesy Jalapeno Pull Bread
[x] Lamb Curry
[x] Chicken Soup with Ginger and Shiitake Mushrooms
[x] Curried Pork Empanadas
[x] Basil Chicken in Coconut Curry Sauce
[x] Microwave Mochi
[x] Chicken Pasta with Thyme-Mint Cream Sauce
[x] Spaghetti alla Carbonara
[x] Mango Chicken Curry
[x] Fettucine Alfredo

[x] Chicken with Mushroom Cream Sauce
[x] Smoked Salmon Pasta
[x] Pasta with Chicken and Asparagus
[x] Lemon Poppy Seed Muffins
[x] Bourbon Chicken
[x] Pasta Primavera
[x] Asian Chicken Noodle Soup
[x] Creamy Miso Chicken Pasta
[x] Grilled Chicken Rigatoni Florentine
[x] Almond Crusted Tilapia
[x] Coconut Shrimp with Sweet Chili Mayo 
[x] Bay Scallops with Garlic Parsley Butter
[x] Seared Sea Scallops
[x] Vietnamese Garlic Noodles
[x] Tomato Eggs
[x] Black and Bleu Pizza
[x] Panko-crusted Salmon Recipe
[x] Miso-glazed Salmon
[x] Broiled Parmesean-Lemon Tilapia
[x] Sticky Rice and Mango
[x] Thai Red Curry
[x] Chinese Braised Soy Sauce Eggs
[x] Chinese Tea Eggs
[x] Baked Cod with Ritz Crackers
[x] Crockpot Mushroom Risotto
[x] Crockpot BBQ chicken
[ ] Crockpot Carnitas
[ ] Crockpot Beefstew
[ ] Pesto Recipe
[ ] Baked ling Cod with Lemon-Garlic Sauce
[ ] Szechuan Shrimp
[ ] Coconut Tilapia with Apricot Dipping Sauce
[ ] Baked Ling Cod with Lemon-Garlic Sauce
[ ] Chicken and Cashews
[ ] Garlic Chicken with White Wine Sauce

[ ] Spicy Chicken Nuggets Chicharrones de Pollo
[ ] Garlic Knots
[ ] Potato Gnocchi
[ ] Everything Bagel Bombs