Despite that fact that we've been together for almost three years now, this past weekend was the first time I got to take care of you while you were sick.  You probably didn't enjoy the terrible fever and headaches, but this weekend sort of ended up as another precious memory for me.

I just can't get over the adorable face you looked at me with when you asked for those forehead kisses over and over again. With that face, point at whatever you want and I will kiss it or die trying.

Had a weirdly vivid dream last night again. Woke up wanting you in my arms. Mostly because the last thing I was doing in my dream was making out with you... Seriously, why am I such a big pervert about you? I'm so silly.

Lately I've been thinking that I just want us to move in together somewhere.

I'm so impatient.

It's been almost three years since my ACL recon. They say that it takes two years before you start to feel normal. But the secret is that when you have to deal with a problem for more than two years, it becomes normal. You become habituated to the chronic pain and increased limitations and weakness of your body. Suddenly, you find yourself saying, "Oh, it's just my knee again," like a broken record. And it's not just a matter of pain, the experience morphs into a certain mindset and mental reflex. Your body develops this subconscious monster single-mindedly trying to avoid re-injury. It's like having an excuse to be a coward that no one, not even your own mind, can argue with. Who can fault you for being scared to push your limits if it means risking another surgery.

And it breaks my heart sometimes. I feel like I used to be so much braver. I miss being reckless and getting away with stupid stunts by the skin of my teeth. But the line separating challenge from risk is so much closer to my eyes now.

Completed Recipes List

[x] Parmesan chicken
[x] Baked Ziti
[x] Spinach Gnocchi
[x] Swedish Meatballs
[x] Cheesy Jalapeno Pull Bread
[x] Lamb Curry
[x] Chicken Soup with Ginger and Shiitake Mushrooms
[x] Curried Pork Empanadas
[x] Basil Chicken in Coconut Curry Sauce
[x] Microwave Mochi
[x] Chicken Pasta with Thyme-Mint Cream Sauce
[x] Spaghetti alla Carbonara
[x] Mango Chicken Curry
[x] Fettucine Alfredo

[x] Chicken with Mushroom Cream Sauce
[x] Smoked Salmon Pasta
[x] Pasta with Chicken and Asparagus
[x] Lemon Poppy Seed Muffins
[x] Bourbon Chicken
[x] Pasta Primavera
[x] Asian Chicken Noodle Soup
[x] Creamy Miso Chicken Pasta
[x] Grilled Chicken Rigatoni Florentine
[x] Almond Crusted Tilapia
[x] Coconut Shrimp with Sweet Chili Mayo 
[x] Bay Scallops with Garlic Parsley Butter
[x] Seared Sea Scallops
[x] Vietnamese Garlic Noodles
[x] Tomato Eggs
[x] Black and Bleu Pizza
[x] Panko-crusted Salmon Recipe
[x] Miso-glazed Salmon
[x] Broiled Parmesean-Lemon Tilapia
[x] Sticky Rice and Mango
[x] Thai Red Curry
[x] Chinese Braised Soy Sauce Eggs
[x] Chinese Tea Eggs
[x] Baked Cod with Ritz Crackers
[x] Crockpot Mushroom Risotto
[x] Crockpot BBQ chicken
[ ] Crockpot Carnitas
[ ] Crockpot Beefstew
[ ] Pesto Recipe
[ ] Baked ling Cod with Lemon-Garlic Sauce
[ ] Szechuan Shrimp
[ ] Coconut Tilapia with Apricot Dipping Sauce
[ ] Baked Ling Cod with Lemon-Garlic Sauce
[ ] Chicken and Cashews
[ ] Garlic Chicken with White Wine Sauce

[ ] Spicy Chicken Nuggets Chicharrones de Pollo
[ ] Garlic Knots
[ ] Potato Gnocchi
[ ] Everything Bagel Bombs