Lately, I've been wondering how much I've let my injuries and surgeries define me. On one hand, the experiences were serious and altered my life. But there's a part of me that says, "this is nothing compared to what others have gone through". So were those experiences meaningful or just randomly unfortunate? Should I consider those events to be crucibles in my life? I'm not sure. Mostly, I think I just don't know if I should let those experiences be what distinguishes me from other people.

I went to my five-year high school reunion and it was just weird to get a feel for people's impression of me. When I was talking to one old classmate about applying to medical school, he looked at me and said "of course it's the jocks and athletes that want to go into orthopedics". It made me think, "aw crap, am I a jock?" But the experience made me even more aware of how much wushu and my injuries define who I am to people who aren't close to me.

I miss you so much right now. Can we agree that we'll always go on vacations together from now on?  It's hard to come home when you're not there waiting for me. The best part of my day is when we both come home and unwind, but it'll be another week and some until you come back :[.

More and more this past week, I've been thinking about how amazing it is that I have you in my life and that I know you love me too. It feels like I have a miracle in you. I'll never stop being grateful for you and I hope it shows.

Gifts from Henry

Just thought about gifts in general today and then decided to make a list of things Henry's gotten me over the years just so I don't forget :]

• Very first gift: penguin pajama pants!
• Gambit comics! - 2009 bday
• puma shoes (commodore?) - 2009 xmas
• Fourth Hokage & frog wallet - 2010 anniversary?
• boyfriend pillow - 2010 bday
• canada (montreal?) mug & Oh! Henry chocolate bars :D
• comforter & laptop case - 2010 xmas
• st.thomas bracelet - 2011 anniversary?
• st.thomas bikini t-shirts - 2011 bday
• batarang & san diego trip - 2011 xmas
• domo!
• st.thomas trip - 2012 anniversary 
• metal straightsword 2012 bday
• nexus tablet - 2012 xmas
• OC beach trip - 2013 anniversary
• cranium - 2013 bday
• darkside skittles, rebelle nerf gun, thermal socks and tights, pin art! - 2013 xmas
• jewelry - 2014 valentine's day
• las vegas trip - 2014 anniversary
• silver chains - 2014 bday
• SSD - 2014 xmas
• Zaytinya restaurant 2015 anniversary
• party and dewshine 2015 bday
• transformer book 2016 bday (early!)
• Headphones 2017
• Back massager 2017
• heads up goat? restaurant anniversayr 2018
• penguin pants! xmas 2018
• 
  

FUCK THIS PAST WEEK. I FEEL SO GODDAMN AWFUL.

dream

Just because this was unbearably cute and I want to make sure I don't forget about it:

This morning when we woke up, he tole me he had a dream where there was some sort of emergency/apocalyptic event occurring and everyone was evacuating. He frantically tried to find me but he couldn't figure out where I was. Finally, he's at the edge of the city but doesn't want to leave without me so he's thinking, "where is she?!" He looks around and then realizes that I was right next to him the entire time but I was on my tablet, zoned out reading a book or playing a game (probably candy crush). Lol <3  

three little words

...just so I remember the date: April 7, 2013