I really want to say the words...

I shouldn't procrastinate so much. On the bright side, gen chem 2 is still a hundred times easier to understand than organic chem even though I haven't been paying attention in class. The textbook we're using is just very well written in my opinion. Tragically, the econ textbook can't hold my attention for more than three minutes. Most of the time, the book is giving arbitrary name to intuitive mathematical relationships. I can't seem to digest the information because it seems so trivial. Unfortunately, if I can't remember the term they use for something, I won't be able to answer the question... We'll see if I can manage to read seven chapters tomorrow.

But it's okay. Because life is good.

It's fine to joke about how I'm "spoiled," but if anyone showed even a small sign of honestly believing that--I'd have some ass-kicking to do.  My parents only pay for my medical and car insurance, which is something most people my age in college can't say. If I like to spoil myself with my self-earned money, then fine, call me spoiled. But it's my freaking money that I earn, scholarship and internship.

And I may be lazy at my internship, but the people who point that out don't know half as much as I do about programming >[. I'd like to see them figure out C++, Qt, and VTK in a week.

Now that that's out, I'm back to feeling the absolute joy of life mentioned in my previous post :D. 

Life feels so full. I don't feel the need to say the words so urgently anymore. It feels like it's being said without words. And it fills me up with so much warmth to know it's shared.